i'm Sorry!!!!

i've never felt so ashamed of myself as i do at this moment. i guess i just always thought i'd be able to "cute" my way out of it. But there is Nothing worse...no greater regret than when you realize you have Seriously pissed off the object of your desires...

First of all, my voice is gone. i mean, just Gone...like my throat swallowed itself. When i go to answer Her, nothing but little, tight squeaks come out. Not that She was very concerned with my answers at this point anyway, i think it's just the build up lecture that undoubtedly is supposed to put me in my place...makes me feel so small. i'm so embarrassed...

i'm already in tears! How did She do that? i'm finding myself to be so, So remorseful at this moment. i've never felt this way before! How can She just strip me down with Her words like She is...And She must be taking into consideration the pure honesty on my face as She reads exactly what i am thinking. "Please! You don't have to spank me! i'm really So VERY Sorry, and it will Never, Ever happen again!" And it Won't! But She just calmly and coldly tells me that it is already too late for that, and all my begging is not going to do me any good. The damage has been done, and the fact that we are at This point already, there is no other way. i am going to be punished, and i Am going to be Spanked!

my face is Red! i know it is! i can feel it burn. my heart is pounding now, and i'm starting to breath heavier. How much longer is She going to drag this out! i feel So on display...like my face is getting bigger and bigger the longer i stand in front of Her. i just want to hide! Close my eyes and just Disappear!! But She won't let me! She keeps lifting my face to Her with Her fingers under my chin! Oooo! That just makes it Worse! Makes me feel like Such a child...So immature! i just want to crawl in Her arms and make it all go away! Why won't She just let me! Can't She see how bad i feel about it? How Sorry i am! How Sincere my heart is about this! Why isn't She listening? i'm Sorryyyyyyy!!!! Nooooooooooooo!!! ...

love,
~sly

Establishing Boundries...Testing the Water...

She just "Whatever'd" me! After asking me a question, which I answered honestly, she "Whatever'd" me? This made for the perfect opportunity to see how she'll accept my dominant side!

"Did you just 'Whatever' me?"

"Yes I did."

"You DO Realize what you just said is a Huge spanking offense. It's rude, disrespectful and Screams that you need attention. And after I answered your question honestly, that's how you speak to me?"

She said, simply, "yep."

YEP?! Ooooo! She's Really asking for it now!

"I am on my way over there, right now, young lady, and my babygirl is going to Learn that her Mommy means business! Put on your pretty panties. I'll be there in 10 minutes."

That is when I learned that she doesn't wear panties...

"Ma'am? but I don't wear panties. I try to make it as easy for you as possible..."

That's just Sexy! Peeling those tight jeans off her bottom before taking her across my knee will be a treat! It makes me weak in the knees just knowing...a massive turn on that I didn't even know I had a kink for. I can't stop thinking about taking her in my mouth...kissing her lips...her sweet scent and the heat coming off of her. The thought is intoxicating...The desire almost painful. *Sigh*

As promised, I was knocking on her door ten minutes later. By the look on her face when she opened it and saw me standing there, I could tell she did not believe that I was truly coming.

Her attitude had changed quite a bit within those 10 little minutes, because I had a very nervous, contrite little girl standing in front of me. So cute...pouty ruby lips, fidgety hands trying to find their place in front of her, eyes on the floor, but when she looked up to me to answer my questions, the sight before me was like no other I have Ever encountered. There she was, MY babygirl...standing right there in front of me...waiting, wanting, Needing...

I took her by her wrist and walked her into the living room towards the sofa. I sat down and stood her in front of me. I took her chin in my fingers and brought her eyes to mine...

"Your safe word is 'red.' You will use this word if we reach your limit. 'Please,' 'no,' 'sorry' and 'stop' will all be ignored. Unless you use your safe word, I will continue on until I feel you have learned your lesson. Got it?"

With a very red face and in such a softened, weakened voice, she managed to squeak out a little "yes Ma'am."

And then it began...

Love,
~Sly

My Heart goes Pitter Pat....

~Something in the way she moves...

Attracts me like no other lover...

Something in the way she woooooos me...~

*MELTS*

love,
~Sly

And on the Other Side of Things...

Come to find out, SHE needs the spankings...

I can wear those shoes too! It's quite exciting, actually. I feel very comfortable as the bottom in a relationship, but I also have no problem at all switching to Top mode when a special little girl needs it.

she obviously does.

she has a high stress job, so the release is good for her. she also has a cocky little attitude at times, but I think we'll be able to get that under control fairly quickly...

I love the thrill I get when I've made her blush by something I've said. I love the high between us when we make each other smile. she's good for me. I'm good for her. I like where this is going. It's Easy. Very natural...as it should be. I'm very happy with the way things are. Our future looks bright.

Stay Tuned!

~Sly

Sighs...

i've been sick for NINE days now, and it's really starting to get to me! Tonight, i could be sitting in a club with TWO of my most Favorite Crushes! i've been looking forward to tonight since this time last year. it's a good friend's birthday today, and it was a Japanese dinner followed by drinks at the local hang out afterwards. Everyone is there...even as i type this. my urge to go, even now, is So strong. But i'm not. i won't. i've been sick. i look like crap. i still feel like crap. i know i won't be good company. and then, God forbid i get tickled at something and start to laugh...OMGoodness! That would start off a coughing spell that would surly be nothing but embarrassing. i hate summer colds. i can't believe i'm missing out tonight. i really wanted to be there.

i'm bored. i have cabin fever. Not quit ready to go to bed yet...so i thought i'd blog. i'm listening to old, sappy love songs. Hall and Oats, Jefferson Starship, 10cc...i love those old songs. It takes me way back...to places i like to go. i got the blues pretty bad lately. Worse than i've had in a very good bit of years. Not sure why...so much good has happened to me this year so far...lots of reconnecting with the past. i mean, i've found and gotten back in touch with Eveyone i ever wanted to this year. Facebook, MySpace and Classmates.com are Amazing tools for such things. it's been a great adventure. it's been busy. and it's been an endearing time of my life.

LOL...i used to talk about how October was busy for birthdays in my family. Starting Oct 14 until the end of October, there is a birthday every three days in my Immediate family! But now, since reconnecting with my oldest, bestest friends from High School, the birthday bash starts in September now as well! Sept 1, 6, 8, 9, 13, and 17 are all birthday's of close friends

Well..my Mommy just came in and said it's time for me to go the bed, so, that's it for tonight. Just rambling. Night Mommy! I love you!

Sweet kiss and cuddle.

love,
~sly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqdY6APJH7A

Passion...

i received a very important request last night. "Text me in the morning, around 9 am, and remind me, please..."

Did She have any idea how precious that was to me? Do You have any idea what a rush i got from that? How i savored every ticking moment that past from the time She requested until the time came to act? OMG!

*Melts!*

And You know how i fantasized and twisted the situation into a Top/bottom scene in my head...Making this my first official assignment from Her...

How i imagined this was a test. Her test for me to see if i could follow simple direction... How pleased She would be when that text came through at 9 am sharp. Would She notice? Could She feel the passion behind my actions?

And that simple "Thank you!" in return after the 11th hour of pining was the Sweetest of rewards...

Mmmmm....Passion!